It actually started out perfectly fine and I got a lot of insight on who I want to be more as dancer and as human. I had plans to go the gym, did a little searching for next years humble abode…
and then I got into a car accident…
It happened so quickly that I didn’t even know what to think, but I’m OK. I walked away without a scratch, unlike my little ‘Yota. I’m just praying I get it back soon. There was a time when I actually wished that I was in the hospital because I wanted nothing to do with life, but after today I realized how far I’ve come from that place. It’s weird how terribly horrible situations make me hopeful. It’s probably because I know that something good HAS to come of all this adversity.
Two years ago I would’ve broke down at all of this and not to say that I’m smiling through, but I sure am being a boss about it. Two months ago even I would’ve shied away from the angry belligerent wife who was trying to come at me, but I was literally ready to take her and her soggy bed slippers. Two weeks ago I would’ve shriveled up and did things that I would feel stupid for right now. But today is today and I am getting so much better at being myself.
So Wednesday you can take that! I have no car right now, but I have food and God is still in love with me. I still have a way of getting to school and I have legs to walk and thankfully to dance with still.
I could have died today. My dance career could have ended today and I really hope I let that sink in so that I can push harder through all of this and come out amazingly.
And tomorrow I will be better.