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Too Much of a Good Thing.

If this comes across as me being stuck up just know that I’m not trying to be.

Sometimes I just know how to do things. I know the answer, I know how to make things happen and work, I know what people will like or say. Some times I can guess what they’re thinking. I’m not claiming to be psychic or whatever but my intuition about certain things is very spot on in multiple areas.

All that to say too much of good thing can go wrong. Knowing how and what to do doesn’t always work in you favor. Although sometimes it takes total travesty for this to even slightly make sense. I try not to waste time anymore trying I figure out why things happen the way they did but I can’t worry. I can only boss it out. Live my life.

I just want to stay up all night. Listen to old love songs and float.

With yourself?

You're Alive. Start There.


You’re Alive. Start There. | Jake Dudley’s latest article on having courage

I bought a bed last week.

I should be happy about that, right?

But I wasn’t. I bought the box spring, the mattress, sheets, and comforter for a great deal, but once I lied down on it for the first time, all I could…

Current apartment situation: sleepin on the floor with a stupid stuffy nose watching Never Been Kissed. I’m feelin it but I’m not into this mucus business. 

08/20/14| 3:15 AM

Next Step.

I partially moved in to my new apartment today! One small studio apartment for just me. No roommates for the first time in four years. I think I’ll like it. Plus I live so close to school I can always have people over. Just doin me! Senior year commences in a week. Ah! Woo! I need to get back on my workout game pronto tonto. I want to be proud of myself when I see my senior photos, ya feel me? “Sabina?! That’s you?! So that’s what you’ve been hiding all this time… We should’ve used you sooner. Your body is rockin.” That’s what I want. I didn’t start working out yet but I’ve been trying to detox from WMI. That tore me up. Tomorrow we get the rest of my stuuf!!

" I’m wounded, scarred, affected by the past everyday. So saying that time heals everything would be a lie, it just covers things up. Makes everything better until you touch a scar and are reminded of everything it represents. Anything that has truly affected you or changed you never goes away. It’s just altered to affect you less. And that’s okay, the point isn’t to always be okay. The issue is that I was always told that time heals all wounds and realizing how wrong that is still disappoints me every time I feel wounded again.

So it leads to wondering if either time changes nothing or if I just need a ridiculous amount of time. It’s the same thing isn’t it? Whatever happens happens, I may never be perfectly fine, and I can see past that most of the time. I just wonder if somewhere down the road, I won’t feel so empty, hurt.

- diary entries (#1)

How Is It…

That everyone can eat whatever they want and stay skinny. Or even lose weight! I don’t get it. But here I am gaining 20 pounds off a cliff bar!!

What is this?!

" Just don’t give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don’t think you can go wrong. "

- Ella Fitzgerald (via sundryedtomatos)

(Source: observando)

" The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them — words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a tellar but for want of an understanding ear. "

- stephen King, Different Seasons (via kushandwizdom)
Was feelin myself a little. And?! Random snap chats that make you look like a model.